I spent 36 years of my life trying to figure out who and what I’m supposed to be. 2019 began a period of transformation for me. I lost most of my friendships in one fell swoop, so I decided that I needed to look inward and figure out what led to that. The answer is that I was never truly myself. I had attracted friends who didn’t know the real me. As I felt more comfortable with them, I revealed more and more about myself and that’s when the truth of our incompatibility came out. At the tail end of 2019, I was diagnosed with an autoimmune disease, which you can read about in My HS Story. 2020 was spent mostly in lockdown and work from home due to the COVID-19 pandemic and my being immunocompromised. 2021 brought a change in careers. I went from being a librarian (13 years) to being an insurance broker. Honestly, I don’t think I’ve ever been happier. Not because of the changes themselves, but because of how I arrived at them. I began this blog in 2019 to promote awareness for Hidradenitis Supperativa, but I’m continuing it to promote healing, growth, and self-awareness. I am by no means an expert, but I think there’s value in learning from others’ journeys.
Maybe the journey isn’t so much about becoming anything. Maybe it’s about un-becoming everything that isn’t really you, so you can be who you were meant to be in the first place.Paulo Coelho